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Hey guys,

Lately I've been writing about the paranormal, spirituality, the occult, internal growth, magick, astrology, and other fun stuff that might interest you.

You can check it out here:
http://snowythistle.blog/

Miss y'all! Be well

The Purpose of Faggots

The Purpose of Faggots, video, 1 minute and a few seconds

TL;DW he says the purpose of faggots is to be owned by a "real man," and that faggots will be lost until they figure this out. "A faggot has no will of its own; only its master has will."

TL;DR This could be seen as typical seminar of femme-guy-will-naturally-be-desperate-for-masc-guy; but I see something else too involving Will, meaning, purpose, and our most essential selves. Just not so deep into the shallow end as this guy makes it out to be.

We often see and talk about attraction as a fun side effect people have that can be taken advantage of. Want to slay? Get muscles. Want to MGTOW from sex/society? Ok cool here are some good essays on entrepreneurship and passive income -- nothing sexual or regarding your essential self or Will are at stake here! Enjoy!

But what if sexuality goes deeper than that?

In fact, how can it not? Our passionate wailings, top or bottom, cannot be seen as a mere freaky sideshow from our regular lives. Not to say we should go all out and do it on the streets; that serves no purpose. But what if our personal sexuality didn't just indicate "a lot" about ourselves, but was a blueprint of our most essential selves, and all we are at our most basic and pragmatic?

Do we manifest, or not? Do we command, or serve? Do we win, or lose? Do we eat our fill, or make sure others' whims are quelled first? This goes a bit beyond the physics of topping and bottoming.

A devastating breakup with a 'top' can feel like a huge direction in our life is gone and we can feel listless -- like a close relative who was your rock, leaving. When it's a terrible breakup with a 'bottom' where he leaves us for someone better or out of boredom, we hate ourselves and feel our masculinity and self are unworthy, much the same way a straight-RP guy feels when his girl decides to try her luck on someone better than him, like a daughter disowning her father. In both cases the one leaving us is looking for 'better,' but the two sides of the same coin (top leaving, bottom leaving) are crucial to how we feel that pain that sears our entire self, even if it's just for a moment. That pain is largely a litmus test to our connection with our internal power, regarding the whole coin.

If you like more powerful guys (and incidentally are probably a bottom or "faggot" as he calls in the video), you might be psychologically outsourcing a power you can't find in yourself by constantly seeking out these types. In fact he might be right -- you could live your life walking eggshells around a 'real alpha' who gives no fucks about you and you'd be oddly satiated, or at least your psychological wounds that largely turned you out that way would be ok with it. A breakup hurts for many reasons -- how he did it on a voicemail of all places, how it was gradual and you hate him for it, how he was frank/honest/nice but he's still gone. But the visceral pain the dainty guy feels for Chad might have to do with his internalized, lost masculinity that he just grasps in another man and that keeps going away. He has to keep finding it in other men and is thusly a slave; he has low energy on his own and thus craves a 'masculine,' self-ascertained man, or at least the illusion of this.

If you are into smaller guys, I'm not sure how this in itself would indicate a problem, and I'm not exactly fending for myself either by saying it's no problem, as someone who is wacko for jocks. But your relationship with your masculinity is ESSENTIAL with hitting on and sex with bottoms (sex and flirting are the same thing). If you've been receiving delicious dick for a few months and decide to try your luck on a twink, tapping into your more manly self and less fluttery archetype can be tough. Going from a daisy to an oak tree is no simple task. A bottom you're fucking's relationship with you may be a good indicator of how in touch with your power you are though. (I'm gonna say "power" there and not "masculinity" because one's masculinity is basically a result of one's internal power, yeah?)

Both cases deal with our power and where it is inside us -- how much of it we are in touch with, what we are outsourcing to other guys we want to hang off of because we have Fear regarding what would happen if we were to act on our power, and, when dealing with bottoms when we are tops, we feel how powered up our power is at all.

My only 'issue' with his message and the rest of the video's website is that it confuses constant sex with a person's fulfillment -- highly suggesting self-actualization, emotional fulfillment, being found in mere fucking. I disagree. His posts on a top's comandments and a bottom's commandments are very exemplary of the masculine and feminine polarity I can't stop talking about, but to reduce yourself to a caricature of dominance/submission, in my vanilla opinion, is like reinforcing your dumb habits you're doing anyway instead of aiming for transformation.

Sex is a huge indicator of how we are managing our lives, how we see power in others, and how powerful we see ourselves. Most of us are probably not sex-obsessed like fagmaster seems to be. But even if we look at our past relationships and categorize them imagistically and with no top/bottom/masc vocabulary (my first boyfriend I opened up to like a best friend, my chads, the times I've been a chad with a twink), we see that our sense of self, our testing of our masculinity, and our testing of our desirability to a masculine/hero counterpart were in play behind the scenes because it is our base nature, regardless of the logistics and details. "Were you master or servant?" as the extreme fagmaster would put it. These feelings of how Potent we are are incredibly important to our animal selves, and there's little we can do about them. If you are secure in your power you may feel these feelings aren't so important or could possibly be optional things to bother oneself wondering about, when in fact it is the very security with oneself that makes this Potency seem so unimportant.

On the topic of the kind of excessive sex fagmaster promulgates, I'm also incredibly sensitive of cultural Marxism now (and am enough of a tinfoil hat wearer) to know that the sex-show all around us is not incidental and no accident, and that elites win materially and in the long-term by having the population fuck itself into poverty, dependency, and out of existence. This isn't the place to go too deeply into explaining, but this is why I'm very wary of "just let go and bump uglies!" propaganda -- despite my lifestyle :⁾ -- and urge you to beware of being a total sloot! We are things beyond sex. Sex is the great indicator; we can get primal with sex. But goddamn it isn't everything.

That is the paradox: we are greater than beings we identify as animals, many of which are survive-and-reproduce programs, a lot like us but more so. But, to gauge your essence, watch how you fuck, what you want to fuck, what you let fuck you, and why you fuck. Then power-up and improve your life from there. Why aren't you letting yourself own all your power?

New Political Blog

I'll still be posting here about gay sex/dating stuff, but I have a new political blog called Exposing Leftism. Hope you enjoy.

How do gay men get motivated and thrive like straight men if competition for gay sex is minimal?

Men have invented the modern world because they have had to compete to become the Best Male in order to get laid...by the hypergamous and selective woman. Let the games begin. And if you get burned, play harder.

While gay men are arguably as disposable as straight men (more disposable if you're thinking discrimination, less disposable if you're thinking gay-worship in the media), getting laid for a gay guy is not the hardest thing nowadays. And we here who know the wisdom of disposing oneitis and not "improving myself for him so he gets interested again" (due to the neuroticism it causes and the lack of practicality of postulating our old flames will rekindle)...we have a leg up on romance, but that might be our falling. We don't compete for sex and we know better than to give our hearts to the first bidder (or any bidder if we can help it), so what's our biological kick to ass-kick?

I figure that the big motivator for gays is often shame. Even if they're not being shamed now that high school's over (it got better!), the feeling is still there, or the personality pattern of achievement and taking the other bitches out of the competition remains. Dad isn't thrilled about your ball-throwing abilities, but he thinks that science fair prize (or standing ovation in a theater) is pretty dank!

After TRP taught me what my oneitis was and why I should cast it aside, I've still had motivation to plunder on in my career and self-analysis, turning new rocks, making new friends, self-discoveries and ideological leaps, but I have recently been struck by the notion that I don't have the "sexual" or "romantic" motivations that so famously drive men to change the world. And coming from our consumerist world-culture, we can look at this and find the audacity to say "hey, I want that."

I suspect masculine-top gays may psych themselves into running more game, out of necessity or because they initiate more, and thus they are constantly in 'competition mode' or 'all in or nothing whether I get rejected or not', thus driving them to become more worthy men, whereas more feminine bottoms may have gone off of their looks and used clumsier game, coming off at best as endearing during flirtations but regardless not finding sex to be a rare commodity.

I've also noticed that high-status men have hit on me and even become romantically interested when I play it right, but I suspect it doesn't have to do with my super-masc-alpha-dude status, nor does their interest affect my status in the male hierarchy. It is like being the female of the group; the status is by no means automatically lower, but the standards are so different that lining up a who's-who hierarchy of males and females is a headache. In courting, the masculine counterpart's status matters but not necessarily the feminine's.

This could entirely be the problem of bottoms. Much like feminism has taught women to go for career and status, when this in fact makes them unsatisfied romantically and sexually, maybe bottoms aren't meant to change the world like their more masculine gay lovers. They play the woman's game sexually/romantically, and therefore their habits and motivations transfer into their life force and motivation.

Now that I've said "life force" humor me with this new age thought: sexually I find the masculine counterpart's horny energy comes from his hips/balls area and projects onto the masculine subject's ass, while the feminine feels a longing in the chest for the masculine counterpart's desire, and the feminine projects 'her' desire onto his sexy upper torso. I very strongly feel that the life force is what's activated when someone is interested in a masculine way, and the feminine desire for the masculine's desire is desire for his outstanding life force, the procreator of life. Interestingly, they say that when a man's balls are literally cut off, he has little motivation in life. Correlation?

How have gays been able to accomplish so much if gay sex competition is minimal?

What is the fire under your ass, or the thing that holds the carrot in front of your face?

What would you say is the chief motivator for most gay men, sex or otherwise? A taste for life, an eye on luxury/harmony/pleasure/kitschiness?

If lack of motivation is more of a bottom's situation, should a bottom aim to become a top in bed in order to achieve, instead of find himself in a life of tying down a beta-bux?

It's OK to say "no" to someone because they have HIV/AIDS, despite what the current PC campaign says

AIDS was a big deal and a death sentence, and nowadays with the right meds, it seems to be a pain in the ass financially but if you're responsible you should basically be fine, or so they say. I'm pretty uninformed but my understanding is that most people who have AIDS will still die from some form of "AIDS related illness" aka AIDS pressing the off button on your immune system, so AIDS still completely sucks to get.

My Facebook feed has been lecturing gays about HIV/AIDS "stigma" and how it is now arrogant to not sleep with someone just because they have HIV/AIDS. Especially if they mention they are "undetectable," which means they are taking their meds enough that they shouldn't be transmitting. Because you should always take a relative stranger's word on their disease-status when your life depends on it, right?

It must suck to have this disease, have to share the news with partners should you decide to, and be inevitably turned down or heartbroken as a result of a dumb past decision, or perhaps be relegated to condom use or only informed gays who take PrEP (which seems to be 86-99% effective). But no means no amirite? And if I had AIDS who am I to lecture responsible men on how they should have sex with me for politeness' sake?

I was doing a voluntary anonymous gay-male-sex study for money when I said something like "protection" referring to condoms and the monitor quipped something about how that word has "stigma" as if AIDS were something someone would want to protect themselves from, so he personally prefers to use another word. I'm not sure if someone is trying really hard to get gay people to keep on fucking AIDS into each other as if it would actually cull our population, or people are really trying this hard to create a world where No One's Feelings Are Hurt Ever. And if hundreds of gays get AIDS in the process and the pharmacists keep making that money, hey we made people feel better!

I am largely beginning to think that there is a large but strong undercurrent of counter-thought to most of these PC campaigns, especially since nowadays you don't hear much from the boogeyman-side that they are shouting against. "Black lives matter, especially when it's a white person killing them (despite 93% of black murder victims being killed by other blacks)!" "Ok." "Her body her choice!" "Ok." "Feminism!" "Mhmm."

RP says, it's your life, not their politeness playground. Your body your choice betch!

Alpha-widowed? Maybe it's time to become an alpha.

Alpha-widowed is a term we see often on TRP that refers to a woman who met her male alpha match and can't have him back and won't take anything lower (and for alpha widows that becomes, "won't take anyone else"). Maybe he was a one night stand, maybe an ex. These women are considered damaged goods by the community.

Gay men infatuated with a masculine superior who no longer gives him any notice have a vantage point that women don't however. They can make the man of their dreams out of themselves. Not just in a feel-good way ("Well Dan isn't answering my texts anymore, but check my new mile-running time!") but actually feel his love for that masculinity go towards himself as he becomes it, and the bygone alpha-Dan becomes objectively substandard to his new self. He doesn't have to miss moaning under the Masculine; he can be the Masculine in even better form, channeling it better than Dan.

Straight RP men actually have the same solution. Making yourself an alpha male draws all your pheromones to think you are really, really awesome, that the guy in the mirror is really, really awesome, and bitches become a fun occasional side gig, girlfriend included, an inferior priority to the god that is YOU. We preach this on TRP all the time.

Gay men though, have the whole masc/fem, bottom/top thing going on so masculinity can be a little more complicated. Anal semantics aside (literally and figuratively), my whole schpeal regarding gay sex/dating is and has been that masculine/feminine polarization is just as an important dynamic sexually between straight partners and gay partners. One is the player providing masculine value, the other is the screening playful more-feminine one looking for Mr Guy. An initiator and a receptor. Otherwise it's two dudes planning a mutual wank playing who can get their tongue down further the other's throat, or two drag queens planning a Lady Gaga shasay into the ground.

Being a feminine receptor to a straight-guy-type is fun because you are going mostly off of your looks (you don't necessarily have to lift), the other guy initiates if you're lucky ("he wants me, oh my!" is a familiar and fun feminine endorphin) and the guy, if you're lucky, is muscular, taller, and actually likes that you are easier to handle/carry and boss around. It's also fun because you will probably deal with less catty gays and instead guys who just act more like guys. Less drama, more interesting conversation, and, if you're into missionary, chizeled abs going thump-thump right above your pelvis. I accept.

But I've found that moments where I catch myself at my most masculine offset a joy I didn't know I had. So when a twinkier, cute, light-haired guy shows interest in me and I'm basically down despite him not being Captain America, I follow the push and pull, and practice being the oak tree that the bottom-monkey climbs on and feeds off of.

It only sucks because in the position of the masculine, you're more likely going to be with more ostentatiously feminine guys (or go through the trouble of screening them out if you're on a mission for a masculine submissive), you deal with shit tests, which are hard -- basically, they're not expecting to buy you a drink (but they do, if you let them). Being the guy is so much eeeasier than being the girl, right?!

I had a plate who was cute and an insider into our industry, which I found very interesting, so the conversation was mostly that. He did text a lot though so I kept him at a distance and ignored his empty openers ("you're cute"; "hi"). When we were among others and he wasn't worried about concentrating on conversation that fancied me, I couldn't help noticing the similarities between being a girl and being a feminine gay bottom type. I mostly am a gay/skinny(toned)/feminine guy to be honest, but I like to think I'm more grounded and curious than this generic type I'm about to elaborate on:

I noticed that when he was talking to others, he would always go on about himself without exception. His tone was always gossip-y and whenever he talked about others' actions, it was always with a "wow! can't believe they went there!" because someone else would certainly judge that, the status quo had been clear to him but not to the dissenter in question, or something else had set the rules and garlfriend wasn't following! Scandal! Judgment decries them! Moments alone for this girl-fellow were an instantaneous flight to Instagram where, with an almost somber expression, he would Like almost everything on it; he was therefore one with the group and 'with it.' More sad are the femme gays who I have actually seen get off to some kind of 'empowerment' by double-tapping Insta posts by celebrities who have never heard of them and who will never notice their 1 second Like-contribution. What all of these have in common is that the Instagram, the gossip, even the hair-tossing (for whom?), all swirl and dance around a phallic symbol, like a big wide open vagina worshipping a Penis so deep inside of it that it can't see it: the Penis, a based protagonist, a rule-setting, phallic beast that is the rule, the status quo, the man. And when Penis says "WHAT is this!" or anything goes against Order/Rules/Society (i.e. Penis) and Penis's silence echoes the dissonance between the offense and It, social media and chicks go "ohh..my...gawsh. Oh no they didn't. Literally can't. Hashtag not doing what everyone else is doing even though Big Phallic Center Of Gravity says to and we all follow it. Also that dress? What will people (Penis) think? Also, the other day Louise ignored Michelle in front of everyone when she said hi [expecting huge reaction from person she is telling]. (Penis says to try to be nice, as we all know, and this is a violation of Penis.)" "That's nothing: Matt said something racist." (She couldn't give less of a shit about hurt feelings or discrimination; Penis says it's bad though and that makes all the girls go "oh! ohh Penis!") These peter pan girly gay boys are putting on a show for an invisible judgmental distant man all the time. They are the true Charlie's Angels.

The craziest part was when this other guy was talking about another guy like "oh he's showing interest in me!" soullessly like a little whaddya know status show instead of any kind of connection, and his girlfriends would be like "ahmaga good job." My only inner response was, wait, seriously? That's something to be proud of? It was obvious that for this particular guy the only thing going through Mr Chad's mind was "sure I'll stick my dick in that." (This was the Instagram one btw.) I never thought TRP would make me laugh at a chick/bottom's self-congratulation of being with a worthy guy, but that's the thing -- the guy is the worthy one. Not this leech.

For the truly and pathetically femme gay men, power is always by proxy. Tagging Beyonce in tweets, showing off that they saw Cher on the street -- it's one thing to do something like this occasionally and in good taste or humor, but for many gays this is life as they know it, and settling for anything else is a [RuPaul pun regarding the word "no"]. Including with the manly men they seek -- a manly man is power and status for them, these gays have made luxury items¹ of themselves. Feminine people need validation, need to put someone down, and this all depends on someone else's judgment/decisions/values, the status quo of their society, the firm regulations that are like a holy book that fall hard on a surface and make the feminine person go "oh!" (in both acquiescence and pleasure).

Be the status quo. Be the rule. Make your own values. It applies to relationships too: gay men don't have to revel in the cat lady status that women so often do once Chad sees their expiration date is up. They can be men.

And now for something uncanny:

The Pervert's Guide to Cinema talks about, among MANY things, this phenomenon of a figure not being able to leave your life; it comes out either in your imagination, or an impression you do. This phenomenon has come up a lot in movies as a creepy Other that sometimes becomes you. In almost all cases it is the person, or an untapped energy inside the person that the person refuses to dig into. A very interesting and humorously made documentary for its own sake. Are you ignoring your masculinity and projecting it onto other inferior boys?

Man up :]

¹ Linked because of this quote: "There is one great advantage which women have over men: they have a choice – a choice between the life of a man and the life of a dimwitted, parasitic luxury item. There are too few women who would not select the latter." Funny that gay men have this choice too, and too often select the latter.

Edit #343234575: I noticed that I only dealt with oneitis towards more masculine/dominant guys. I guess becoming more alpha is still the answer, as it is with TRP, even if your oneitis was more submissive/feminine. Bitches ain't shit, and oneitis is feminine anyway; it depends on the other person etc. Become the rule.

Responsible Offendedness

There is a considerable amount of well-meaning tone-policing, word-policing, and, well, thought-policing on Facebook lately, mostly meant to raise awareness and politeness, but sometimes with haughty moral superiority that is not so empathetic and actually meant to start a witch hunt against those who think non-hatefully, but simply have different ideas on how everyone can achieve even more happiness using broadly different and scientific tactics (totally not me or anything!). In everyone's rush to get everyone to think like them and to get those pesky individuals who think differently to at least act like they do by following arbitrary "rules," I propose a few "rules" about REPONSIBLE OFFENDEDNESS, and, according to the current doctrines, I Totally Can Do This because I am gay and hispanic. No privilege tho.

1. If someone offends you, it doesn't mean they hate you or XYZ group.
2. If someone offends you, it doesn't mean they're wrong. It means you had an experience, and the truth is independent of that.
3. If someone offends you, it doesn't mean you're right. You could be right, but your level of offendedness doesn't correlate with the truth.
4. Don't immediately try to unemploy someone who holds a view that is different than yours, or who feels differently towards a subject than you or what everyone is supposed to feel/think.
5. If you find yourself trying to unemploy someone after an interaction with them, you are probably doing something shitty and don't care about free speech.

If these rules seem severe, check out the other rules on your feed. You obviously don't have to follow these rules, but see what happens when you don't follow the others!

"Kids in school don't know how to think anymore. They feel something and they think they're thinking." ~ Thomas Sowell, very summarized quote

(I almost posted the above on my Facebook. What was I thinking!)